I used to think poorly of myself; never at the level I should have because seeds of doubt were planted in me and I allowed them to grow through negative thought processes. I always thought I wasn’t enough and marked myself as ineligible to be used by God. I lost my voice through the need for constant approval. The voices of others became my god, instead of Gods divine wisdom. Making decisions became a battle because self doubt opened the door to fear. The fear of being wrong or making the wrong choice was paralyzing. This feeling of overwhelm was because I was operating in perfection. It had to be done perfectly or not all. This was because of the fear of being judges by others and deeming myself not good enough.